Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Delusional Thoughts...


This picture was taken in June 1986.

Other than the fact that I have big hair (of course!, any self-respecting person did in those days), my DH has a skinny black leather tie on, and it looks like I am robbing the cradle (he still looks young, dang him!), I want to point something out.

See that dress? The black and white cow print dress? It was a size 8. I felt great in that dress. I am sure that it was a cheap dress. It was fitted through the waist, let out in the hips, then skinny through the legs. It also had large pockets in front (um, designers, what were you thinking?). I think out of all of the clothes I have ever had, I loved this dress the most, because I felt pretty, sexy, and fabulous in it.

This is where the delusion sets in.


I JUST -- and I mean 6 weeks ago -- JUST -- took this dress to Goodwill (because I am sure that someone else will just snap up that 21 year old dress that was worn three times -- NOT). For all these years, it was in my mind that I would fit back into that size 8 dress again. Um...then what? Wear it?


I do not think I will ever be a size 8 -- it was a struggle for me to get there even then, and I had to do horrible things to myself to stay there (ie: it was not healthy for me to be there, maybe we will talk about that another day!). I will settle for a size 10. As long as I can stay there and eat like a normal, healthy, weight-conscious person.


When I get there, I will buy myself a whole new wardrobe. I know Mark will buy it for me! My delusion was holding onto something for 21 years that just wasn't realistic. I let it go, bought some clothes that fit me now -- so that I can feel good about myself WHILE I am losing weight -- and I am moving on. Or should I say "moving down"?


Till next time -- eat less and move more : )

6 comments:

Kristy C said...

Wow-so 80's!!! Gosh I miss the
80's!!:)

Gerrie said...

Happy to see you let it go...stop beating yourself up...take 1 day at a time...just add more steps..I think stamping/scraping/computering helps to keep our butts large!

Lisa said...

Like Kristy said...I miss the 80's! Glad to see that you've let go of the "cow print dress". You're doing great!

Anonymous said...

I too have set my weight loss goals for 2008, and am a technique junkie. I am trying to pair the two, thinking if I keep my hands busy stamping, I won't be eating. If you want some great motivating music to listen to, check out http://www.skinnysongs.com/listen.html Have a great healthy day

Kristin Nestler

Susan said...

Um, I surely don't miss the 80's! I do understand how you are feeling 'cause I often feel the same, but remember you are a beautiful person because of what is on the inside.

Nothing wrong with being healthy though, and I may join you with the WW online journey. I've been thinking about it for a while now - and it would be great to "know" others doing it too.

momgore623 said...

I happened upon your blog and wanted to join in encouraging you in your weight loss efforts. I too joined WW in January but have not had as great success as you. I'm still tracking points online and keeping active but at 48 the weight just doesn't want to leave as easily. Keep at it one meal at a time.