Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Delusional Thoughts...

This picture was taken in June 1986.

Other than the fact that I have big hair (of course!, any self-respecting person did in those days), my DH has a skinny black leather tie on, and it looks like I am robbing the cradle (he still looks young, dang him!), I want to point something out.

See that dress? The black and white cow print dress? It was a size 8. I felt great in that dress. I am sure that it was a cheap dress. It was fitted through the waist, let out in the hips, then skinny through the legs. It also had large pockets in front (um, designers, what were you thinking?). I think out of all of the clothes I have ever had, I loved this dress the most, because I felt pretty, sexy, and fabulous in it.

This is where the delusion sets in.

I JUST -- and I mean 6 weeks ago -- JUST -- took this dress to Goodwill (because I am sure that someone else will just snap up that 21 year old dress that was worn three times -- NOT). For all these years, it was in my mind that I would fit back into that size 8 dress again. Um...then what? Wear it?

I do not think I will ever be a size 8 -- it was a struggle for me to get there even then, and I had to do horrible things to myself to stay there (ie: it was not healthy for me to be there, maybe we will talk about that another day!). I will settle for a size 10. As long as I can stay there and eat like a normal, healthy, weight-conscious person.

When I get there, I will buy myself a whole new wardrobe. I know Mark will buy it for me! My delusion was holding onto something for 21 years that just wasn't realistic. I let it go, bought some clothes that fit me now -- so that I can feel good about myself WHILE I am losing weight -- and I am moving on. Or should I say "moving down"?

Till next time -- eat less and move more : )

Monday, January 21, 2008

Who is SHE???

Yee Haw! Who is that chick? Hey, she is 2/3 of me!!! THAT is what I looked like 20 short years ago -- and 1/3 less than I am. Well, I think I was less that that, but this was probably my best weight. The date was May, 1987...about 7 months before I married my husband.

I am 5'10", and I don't think I ever looked better than this. I had to dig to find a full-bodied shot -- even then I was the one behind the camera! This, at least, gives you a starting point to visualize where I was. While I don't necessarily want to get back to this weight, it is a good reminder of what is hidden in me below the layers of unnecessary weight I am carrying around. I have to tell you, I showed Mark this picture before I scanned it, and I thought his eyes would pop out of his head! HE remembers me at that weight.
Okay, now for the reality check.
This is me now. It is not a full shot -- I am not ready to reveal that yet -- but you can see by my face that I have that layer of weight on me that I am desperately trying to shed.

So here is an update on where I am...
I started WW on 1/03. According to my tracked weight today, I have lost....10 lbs! Yes, I have lost the first 10. It helps to be motivated!

I skied this weekend -- and even though I had some equipment problems, I still managed to get three hours of skiing in. And I even did 15 minutes this morning on my Nordic Track (it is too cold to go outside and walk).

Hooray for me! How did YOU do?

Monday, January 14, 2008

Welcome to my Journey!

Welcome to my weight loss journey.

I know that some of you are thinking that I have so many online "irons in the fire" - why would I want to start another blog? Well, the answer is simple -- this one is for me. And I need YOU to help ME.

You see, I have to become Two-Thirds of myself. I need to lose 1/3 of my current weight to get back to a healthy, attractive, reasonable weight.

One-Third. Whew. That is a lot, isn't it? Thats a ton of good eating behind the 1/3 that needs to melt off me. Well, no-one says that I can't eat well and be well while I am losing that third.

This blog is my way of putting my weight loss efforts out there for all to see -- a very public way for me to lose my weight. A bit of accountability. I need accountability and the idea that there are people looking over my shoulder. So will you join me on my public journey? If you decide to lose weight, too, great -- but just keep me accountable, will you?

Alright, down to Brass Tacks.

I started Weight Watchers online on January 4th. I have lost 6.4 pounds in the 10 days that I have been on the program. I really love this online tool -- I spend a great deal of my life in the cyber-world, why not diet on it? Really, I like the immediacy of the tracking tools and the way that it keeps me in focus.

Okay, that is enough for today. I hope to have some pictures for you tomorrow -- before and current -- so that you can visualize the extra third and get an idea of where I want to go.

Come on along for the journey! Care to join me? I'll try to entertain, tell a few stories, shoe some pictures, educate and share as I work toward becoming two-thirds of myself.

Won't you look over my shoulder?